I know I really can't effectively use words to explain how I feel right now, but I am becoming me again...someone who I haven't been in many years at this point.
I guess I let Cary really do me in good years ago...and perhaps I never really healed because I never realized until recently that I was married to a narcissist.
Not having healed is a choice. I am aware that this is my fault at this point. I am also doing my best to rectify it.
I guess I am trying to start narrowing the gap between the real me and the person I have become through evolution.
I am changing a lot again.
Talking about school makes my eyes light up and sparkle.
It really isn't the school part so much as the Microbiology part.
Microbiology makes me happy. All those gram + and gram - and waxy cuticle chart amuse me.
All I really know is I am still the girl who was never going to leave Memphis because she felt it would be her destiny to someday work for St Jude.
It's funny. Most girls believe destiny is finding the perfect man, marriage, life, kids...whatever.
Not me. I've never been that girl.
I believe my destiny is to leave this world a little bit better place than I found it because I was here.
I've always wished I could be believe in the destiny of true love and happily ever after, but I was never born in that world.
I always knew the stories were just fairy tales.
Anyway, I think I am done for now.
Laters.
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