My sisters want us get a sisters tattoo...

That says:

 It’s been...

To remind us that our past is the past and we choose our own future.

I strained my right rotator cuff. It hurts badly.

I’ve been trying to find a pharmacy clerk/cashier job where my employer will pay for me to get a pharm technician license.

It is a compromise on my part, but pharmacy is a chemistry application. I think I would really enjoy compounding, honestly.

This would provide me with an income to take care of my family while I finish college and something to fall back on if Matt’s health fails.

My education is important to my future.

I had resolved to become a pharmacist, but then found out the market is horrid.

Maybe go for a PhD in Pharmacy rather than a PharmD.

I don’t know really.

I just want to be completely independent if something were to happen to Matt.

I don’t want to be in a position where I don’t need help from anyone.

Dr Brian Merrill and I discussed this years ago.

He assured me that there would be enough people around to help me figure things out, but things are different now. 

There we had a house which would’ve been completely paid for, but here we are renting.

The thing is that our kids wouldn’t have the amazing services they have here if we’d stayed.

Our kids actually have a fighting chance at an amazing future now.

I want us to buy a house here and that require me to have a decent income, over and above Matt’s.

But I know my feelings run deeper than this.

My kids have a dad.

My mom married a horrible man when I was a teenager.

He wasn’t my dad and he wasn’t even a nice person.

My mom has since admitted that she was severely depressed and afraid she couldn’t raise us on her own financially.

The problem is the man she married was the devil himself.

I would never put my kids through something like this — or even myself!

I truly admire my sister Leslie’s financial independence. This is what I want for myself and my family.

I think working as a pharmacy clerk to become a pharmacy technician would give me me a solid income without additional debt. This is highly desirable for me.

I don’t think I want to stop my education there. I want more.

I know I’ll get there, but it so hard to be patient— especially when I am injured again already.

I guess I need to learn more patience.

Laters!