Some days your heart just hurts

That's all there is to it. I can't change the past and I never had any control over the hardest things anyway, but acceptance doesn't change anything or make the pain go away. 

Acceptance just takes you to a place where you can protect your heart better from the poor choices of others and move forward, regardless of what they choose, knowing you did your best.

These Arizona years have been bittersweet and hard.

True, I met the love of my life and gained two sweet children... I will forever savor these blessings. The reality is they are worth far more than the pain I have experienced, but the time is swiftly coming to move on...and I am ready.

One day I will completely forget the pain I have felt at the hands of others. 

The gospel only gives us the tools to become like Christ; it cannot force people to be kind, gentle, loving, or even care genuinely about those around us. Choosing to put God first, and not just for show, isn't easy. It isn't for everyone, not even in the gospel.

I never had a problem with compassion before, but I know these years of great trials have given me even more compassion for those who are struggling.

It is not our job to judge others or decide if they are deserving or not. Our job is to love. Our job is to lift the afflicted and love the unlovable. Our job is to comfort the ill and give aid to those in need.

Not everyone believes that though. Not even in the gospel. They hide behind trite platitudes and pass judgment instead...and that really is okay because I am not one of those people. 

I may sleep terribly at my very best, but at least I can live with myself.